I could not be happier in life right now! It’s been nearly a year since I moved to Dayton and things are better than I could have planned.
I still rather frequently have dreams about London in which I have intense nostalgia and melancholy that I’m no longer there. It actually causes me pain to know that some of this world’s finest human beings are in London and I can’t see them anymore. The other night I woke up so upset because in my dream it was back in time near my moving day and I kept saying, “How can I leave London! My whole life is here! Polis is here! I am not getting on that plane!” It’s funny that I have these dreams, because I was SO ready to leave London. I still fully believe it was the right decision … but still. Friends!! And European adventure!
I’ve grown up in the military, so I should be used to this loss. But when I had to say goodbye to Polis’ family, or when I walked away from Kelly and the rest of my friends the last night and pretended like it was any other day getting on the sweaty, piece of sh*t tube, I was like, I can not do this again.
But, when one door closes, another opens, etc., right? I had to say goodbye, but then that meant I could be near my American friends again. My American friends are no longer Voxer voices, WhatsApp messages and e-mails, and I have made some pretty special new friends, too! I still feel as sad as I did before, but I can again feel my wanderlust. So who knows where I will end up, but for now Dayton is wonderful!! No one outside of Dayton believes me, but I’ve lived a lot of places in my day and Dayton really is great place to live.
A big part of being happy is that I feel like I’m finally living my LIFE, whether or not I choose to stay in Dayton. It’s not that I’m now able to buy stuff, because I still don’t like having a lot of things. And it’s more than being able to finally dry my clothes in one hour vs two days in the living room. I’ve been here almost a year and sometimes if a piece of clothing looks at me the wrong way I’ll think, “Go ahead and tempt me. I will not hesitate to wash and dry you again.” I CAN DO LAUNDRY IN LIKE ONE HOUR!!
My life now is pretty stress free (how stressed can one possibly get on a 6-minute commute). Really, the only thing I can complain about is the dating situation, and in all honesty it’s so bad it’s funny so I’m not sure this is a negative. In London I simply didn’t have to deal with the stuff I deal with in Dayton. The worst date I went on in London wasn’t even bad, it was just a little awkward and involved him giving me a melted chocolate bunny lollipop from his pocket. But! My Dayton bad date stories are already written in another post – hopefully coming soon.
Other than that, I’ve seen Kenny Chesney in concert four times already. This is significant for me because his philosophy defines my life. More on that later.
Louisville, Dallas, Indianapolis & Pittsburgh. Two more to go!!
Kenny Chesney has been such a big part of my life because for so long I felt temporary. I was always living somewhere new, meeting new people, traveling to new places. I didn’t have possessions or family in London, but I always had my favorite singer who reminded me that there is a place for me back home, eventually! And even if there wasn’t, I could be like Kenny and go live on a beach somewhere.
Some of my happiest times in London were walking through the city to work at 7am. It’s such a beautiful city, especially when traffic is minimal, and I absolutely loved my job at the British Medical Association. I’d listen to Kenny’s station, No Shoes Radio, during my 2-mile walk. When I’m happy, listening to Kenny makes me even happier!
And then even in the saddest times, Kenny’s music was there to help me feel better. For quite a long time in 2014 I let a relationship completely ruin me to the point where I felt like a different person. I was bizarro Sara!! The world was a negative place with no laughs about random things. But I’d hang out in the spotty English sun that summer, listen to Kenny and know that soon I’d be living my new life and having a blast again!
Look at Kenny’s freaking face. He’s all sunshine.
Thus, every time I see Kenny in concert it’s pretty emotional. I think of all the things I’ve done, accomplished and felt in the past six years, and how I’m finally HERE, finally seeing Kenny in person and finally living my “real” life. Aside from all this, his concerts are just plain FUN!! I sing as loudly as I can to every song and wave my pirate flag!
I don’t care if people judge me for being a dork because I have three Kenny Chesney flags in my apartment or that I sometimes (frequently) sleep in a vintage Kenny concert shirt that says, “She thinks my tractor’s sexy. It really turns her on!” (Perk of being single – you can wear anything to bed).
His music defines my happiness and my life. “It’s all the small moments that add up to the life you’re living: the fun, the friends, the family, the digging in, the making it happen – and loving every minute of it.”
PS: I finally settled on a middle name for Alan! I’ve been trying to come up with one since he joined our family in December, and Karen came up with the perfect name. Introducing Alan Michael: